And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose. Romans 8:28
As I prepare to begin my first year of homeschooling (knees shaking at times) I marvel at how God can use unexpected and even undesired circumstances to usher you into His perfect will.
My oldest went through so much, in public and Christian school, that it drove me repeatedly to ask the Lord what I should do to help him. After his kindergarten year I heard the Lord whisper ‘homeschool’ which I quickly dismissed! Homeschooling had never been my desire. Certainly there had to be an easier solution right? I mean, he had good grades so maybe he just needed a tutor for the challenging stuff. Sounded good, but I knew what he went through to maintain those grades. After another two years of watching this very bright boy struggle to achieve despite demanding and/or inflexible academic environments where many of his peers mistook his kindness for weakness, I was very ready for God to elaborate on what He’d been saying all along.
God didn’t send those trials but spoke from above them to give us insight. He took me back through all the unpleasant experiences explaining them from His vantage point. Then He sent every homeschooling woman of God I know across my path. They shared their journeys which bolstered my faith. When I finally surrendered my plans and fears and told the Lord I would homeschool an amazing peace came over me along with great excitement. In that moment I went from dreading the thought of homeschooling to looking forward to it!
Do I regret waiting so long to homeschool? No. God is not stuck in the past, so I won’t stay there either. He is a very present help and that’s certainly what I need Him to be today! Thankfully the Lord doesn’t mind repeating Himself and loves me and my family so much that He makes use of everything (the enemy’s schemes, our doubts and fears, and even mistakes) to bring us into His good plan for us. My family and I are looking forward to a great school year. I hope to have time to blog and share the testimony!
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© Vanessa A. Harris and The Legacy of Faith, 2012.