Wait, I See It!

Happy Mother’s Day!!!!!

Today I enjoyed what’s become a traditional Mother’s Day gift for me…a massage (exhaling deeply).  I appreciated every minute of it!

As I filled out the customary paperwork, I realized I had nothing to write down when asked about “problem areas needing special attention.”  Typically I carried tension in my shoulders and upper back.  It was like a backpack I wasn’t allowed to put down!  But today…today I had nothing to write down on that white form.  I felt good!  This massage wasn’t therapeutic, it was purely for relaxation.

Then I thought about how I finally got to this place called, Rest, and how long I’d been journeying just to finally get a toe across the threshold.  It started 5 years ago when I began listening to Joseph Prince Ministries.  I’d never seen or heard the person and glory of Jesus Christ revealed like that before!  I realized how burdened and thirsty I’d been, as a believer, the 18 years prior.  I’ve been voraciously feeding on the word of Christ ever since.

I was so misinformed about God’s heart toward me that I hungered for change.  But change came so s  l  o  w  l  y.  Maybe I’m stuck.  Maybe I won’t ever be free of wrong believing.  Maybe I should just be happy to know of true freedom in Christ, even if I don’t ever get to experience it myself.  Those were the lies the enemy wanted me to believe. Instead, I kept feeding on the Truth, Christ revealed in Scripture.  I had to keep my eyes on Him, not my progress or stagnancy.

Somewhere in that cycle of feeding and resting in His finished work, the seed took root, became a seedling, and now the evidence is slowly sprouting.  The slow growth discouraged me, but I’m reminded today the word of God is incorruptible seed that cannot fail.  This Christian walk is neither sprint nor marathon, it’s a WALK.  It takes time.  Over these 5 years, the Holy Spirit has been removing the weights of guilt, condemnation, and legalism out of my backpack.  Those weights tripped me up for years.  So I’ll keep feeding and resting and let Him keep removing!  The Godhead is not frustrated with my progress…I need not be either.

Hold on, look up, change is coming!

For the vision is yet for an appointed time; But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie. Though it tarries, wait for it; Because it will surely come, It will not tarry.  Habakkuk 2:3