I tell you what.
Monday was an exciting and nerve-wracking day for me. I wrote the post about my book, no problem. But I found writing the announcement emails tortuous. I would literally go from crying to feeling like vomiting! Sounds crazy, I know, but those who know me well would not be surprised.
First of all, I’m such a private person and in the book I share how being a “dethroned” daddy’s girl impacted me. If Jesus would’ve let me just write the book and stick it in my drawer for me to occasionally pull out and reflect on, that would’ve been fine by me. That’s just not His style, though. He loves to deliver you and use your story to help deliver others. He’s awesome like that, but it’s not fun for us introverts!
Second, the people I emailed I have more of a relationship with. I’ve spent time with them face to face, and the thought of them knowing the insecurities I’ve had, became overwhelmingly unsettling. I actually felt unsafe. So, I stopped and prayed…
Yes, my soul, find rest in God; my hope comes from him. Psalm 62:5, NIV
My DADDY reminded me that He called me to this moment and He is my protection. He repeated to me what He had me tell my son last week, “Jesus is your reputation, so your reputation can’t be ruined.” Funny. Who did I think I was anyway? I am who I am only by the grace of God.
Truly he is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken. My salvation and my honor depend on God ; he is my mighty rock, my refuge. Vs.6-7
After I poured out my cares and concerns, I felt such peace. The peace that comes when your mind is stayed on Jesus (see Isaiah 26:3) and not yourself or other people. And I thanked God for the worship leader who read Psalm 62:5-8 (NIV) before the praise team sang “We Will Not Be Shaken” (Brian Johnson) on Sunday. My DADDY made sure I would have a ready word to encourage me, come Monday!
Trust in him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge. Vs.8
Encourages women to move past the limits of their relationships with their fathers to find identity, acceptance, and unconditional love in the ultimate DADDY-daughter relationship with God.