I tell you what.
Monday was an exciting and nerve-wracking day for me. I wrote the post about my book, no problem. But I found writing the announcement emails tortuous. I would literally go from crying to feeling like vomiting! Sounds crazy, I know, but those who know me well would not be surprised.
First of all, I’m such a private person and in the book I share how being a “dethroned” daddy’s girl impacted me. If Jesus would’ve let me just write the book and stick it in my drawer for me to occasionally pull out and reflect on, that would’ve been fine by me. That’s just not His style, though. He loves to deliver you and use your story to help deliver others. He’s awesome like that, but it’s not fun for us introverts!
Second, the people I emailed I have more of a relationship with. I’ve spent time with them face to face, and the thought of them knowing the insecurities I’ve had, became overwhelmingly unsettling. I actually felt unsafe. So, I stopped and prayed…
Yes, my soul, find rest in God; my hope comes from him. Psalm 62:5, NIV
My DADDY reminded me that He called me to this moment and He is my protection. He repeated to me what He had me tell my son last week, “Jesus is your reputation, so your reputation can’t be ruined.” Funny. Who did I think I was anyway? I am who I am only by the grace of God.
Truly he is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken. My salvation and my honor depend on God ; he is my mighty rock, my refuge. Vs.6-7
After I poured out my cares and concerns, I felt such peace. The peace that comes when your mind is stayed on Jesus (see Isaiah 26:3) and not yourself or other people. And I thanked God for the worship leader who read Psalm 62:5-8 (NIV) before the praise team sang “We Will Not Be Shaken” (Brian Johnson) on Sunday. My DADDY made sure I would have a ready word to encourage me, come Monday!
Trust in him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge. Vs.8
My book is available on Amazon and Barnes and Noble.
Encourages women to move past the limits of their relationships with their fathers to find identity, acceptance, and unconditional love in the ultimate DADDY-daughter relationship with God.
Wonderful. I’m so glad you reached a new place, a deeper safe one. =)
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Yes, thank you, Diana! It’s been too long, good to hear from you ;-). Did you get my email?
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?? When dya send??
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2/16
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Oh honey, I just dug it out of Spam. I wish you’d followed up on the comment board – would never make you wait so long. I hope you understand that I just don’t have the time. The infrequency of my postings says it all. I’ve also had to decline various offers on blogs. Hope it works out.
Xxxxxxxxx
D.
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I certainly understand, but it was worth a shot;-)
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LOL. I’m a slippery one. Barely holding things down at home, busy with the homeschooling. Thank you.
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